Saturday, April 12, 2008
Am very much thankful for the 11h 50m duty time plus the medication that made me sleep to keep me sane, to keep me rational, atleast.
I really wouldnt have known how much I've fallen if this hasnt happened. I really duno to laugh or to cry. Even as I'm typing this, there's much running through my mind, there's so much I want to express but the only thing that can be registered is just how painfully sweet everything has gotten and how much hope I still carry though I jolly well know it's zilch.
Despite the times spent were that minimal, every moment of it was that special, that precious, that I wished so badly, time would have just stopped then.
Guess my hunch was right, I was simply thinking and reading into things too much, it truly was just my own wishful thinking. Besides, there was no proper beginning to start off with yet I know I've fallen deep withing. It's all my own wishful thinking.
Never will you be seeing this I guess but I just want to let it outta my chest..
Dearest 218, will never forget all the teasings behind that nick same goes to big name and how we derived them. Those and everything else were indeed sweet good memories. Though it was shortlived, you've really coloured my life so beautifully. You really made me so very happy, really made me smiled so much. Ur calls esp really never fail to put that megawatt smile on my face and those very sweet gestures of urs never fail to make me weak. This is so silly but even despite a tiring long flight, thinkin of you at my takeoff landin station, I could still smile that radiantly. To a point, once an IFS commented, everyone looks so tired, ure the one only still smiling! You really made me a very happy girl, or lady so to speak. Remember the conversation we had bout you wanting to get a car of ur own and you mentioned sending me to work but I simply brushed it off? Deep down inside, I really believed very much what you've said and even then and that, I was really over the moon. And you know, what I told you bout the MEL msg, I truly meant it. It was really so sweet of you, I couldnt even rest on the bus though I was super shacked but man, you never know how uber happy I was!
And I've never told you this before, you're really an encouragement to me at work, for u never fail to cheer me up when I tell u how bad certain flights were and u will keep reminding me "aizai aizai, dont kancheong, be more confident". Though they prolly wouldnt mean anything to you but those words were and will always be so assuring and comforting to me esp when work gets busy, it just keeps me going. And uve prolly forgotten, the method u taught me bout safety checks, have been doin them the day u taught me.
It was really so good to see you wear the tees and neckwarmer, really made my day when I saw them personally and in pictures. Had always ponder if you would ever use them. Certainly do hope u'll continue wearing them and do hope, the lip balm came in handy too.
Thank you very much for everything. And hey, sorry if my sorry(s) has been a prob! I really meant them alright. Honestly very badly wished things wld work out fine but.. It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Though things hasnt reached that stage but the meaning is somewhat there, cant find anything close in description.
Blessed birthday in advance! Had very much wanted to make our asus joke materialise but guess it wouldnt be as appropriate now. Please do take very good care and esp of your old ailments, God bless and safe flights always.
Doubt you remembered but every word I told you at NKG was true and if you would know me well enough, i hope, u will understand my actions then.
Never thought I would tell you this but big name, uve really got me fallen so deeply. I sure am going to miss you very very much. Hugss.
XOXO
I really wouldnt have known how much I've fallen if this hasnt happened. I really duno to laugh or to cry. Even as I'm typing this, there's much running through my mind, there's so much I want to express but the only thing that can be registered is just how painfully sweet everything has gotten and how much hope I still carry though I jolly well know it's zilch.
Despite the times spent were that minimal, every moment of it was that special, that precious, that I wished so badly, time would have just stopped then.
Guess my hunch was right, I was simply thinking and reading into things too much, it truly was just my own wishful thinking. Besides, there was no proper beginning to start off with yet I know I've fallen deep withing. It's all my own wishful thinking.
Never will you be seeing this I guess but I just want to let it outta my chest..
Dearest 218, will never forget all the teasings behind that nick same goes to big name and how we derived them. Those and everything else were indeed sweet good memories. Though it was shortlived, you've really coloured my life so beautifully. You really made me so very happy, really made me smiled so much. Ur calls esp really never fail to put that megawatt smile on my face and those very sweet gestures of urs never fail to make me weak. This is so silly but even despite a tiring long flight, thinkin of you at my takeoff landin station, I could still smile that radiantly. To a point, once an IFS commented, everyone looks so tired, ure the one only still smiling! You really made me a very happy girl, or lady so to speak. Remember the conversation we had bout you wanting to get a car of ur own and you mentioned sending me to work but I simply brushed it off? Deep down inside, I really believed very much what you've said and even then and that, I was really over the moon. And you know, what I told you bout the MEL msg, I truly meant it. It was really so sweet of you, I couldnt even rest on the bus though I was super shacked but man, you never know how uber happy I was!
And I've never told you this before, you're really an encouragement to me at work, for u never fail to cheer me up when I tell u how bad certain flights were and u will keep reminding me "aizai aizai, dont kancheong, be more confident". Though they prolly wouldnt mean anything to you but those words were and will always be so assuring and comforting to me esp when work gets busy, it just keeps me going. And uve prolly forgotten, the method u taught me bout safety checks, have been doin them the day u taught me.
It was really so good to see you wear the tees and neckwarmer, really made my day when I saw them personally and in pictures. Had always ponder if you would ever use them. Certainly do hope u'll continue wearing them and do hope, the lip balm came in handy too.
Thank you very much for everything. And hey, sorry if my sorry(s) has been a prob! I really meant them alright. Honestly very badly wished things wld work out fine but.. It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Though things hasnt reached that stage but the meaning is somewhat there, cant find anything close in description.
Blessed birthday in advance! Had very much wanted to make our asus joke materialise but guess it wouldnt be as appropriate now. Please do take very good care and esp of your old ailments, God bless and safe flights always.
Doubt you remembered but every word I told you at NKG was true and if you would know me well enough, i hope, u will understand my actions then.
Never thought I would tell you this but big name, uve really got me fallen so deeply. I sure am going to miss you very very much. Hugss.
XOXO
♥ love & blessings
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All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey
