Saturday, May 24, 2008
No matter how many times we meet, it just never seem enough. The last we met was on Mon bef my BNE and we've been meetin the past week, oh so often, like almost on each offday! Not that I'm complaining though! Met for dinner this time round. And each time, no matter how much we say we wont stay late, we end up only going home after twelve or when we're really tired or when we have an early morn flt the next day, even then, we're still out late. And really, no matter how much we've been meetin, we really never fail to have so many to talk bout.
Just like this evening's meet up, planned to be home bef twelve cos Regina has an early morn HKG turn but after dinner, while buddy went to meet her cousin, Regina and I eneded up at Meritus Mandarin till after twevle, talkin the night away. We sure have loads to talk bout. She's indeed like a big sis to me. Love you very much babe! Hugss.
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Was totally an emotional wreck during my stay at BNE. Drown myself by sleeping in yet even in my dreams, drama mama as it may be, he was there and everything else was replaying. During makan, was on some topic and came to a conclusion of tryin too hard. I want to think I'm tryin too hard, sadly, way too hard.
Did the most silliest thing, anyone would say. But for the sake of it, activated myself despite the super min rest, almost couldnt wake up for flt. Silliest anyone would say but I say, it was all worth it. Firstly, yes I did manage to see and talk to him for that while and even that while, really, it made me so happy. But what really made the flt was the pax who was handicapped. Too tired to elaborate. He just dawned to me; that isnt the end of life, we must continue to live and live fully.
I know, I've said this before and action speaks louder than words. But I really decided to move on, I want to. Infact, it will be tough and I know I will still do nonsense silly things, still think bout him but I will get over, I will. The wreck at BNE was really horrible plus the perfect atmosphere; dimmed room with sappy music, I was totally gone throughout, cried buckets. Never thought I would and even be in this state, esp not when I only knew him for such short period of time. But Regina said, time is not a measurement. True enough I guess. And I am sure, I really have fallen for him, deeply.
Decision made but predict as much that I will fall, be emotional and succumb to silly actions, please bear with me. But I really will learn to be strong, much stronger than yesterday, much more independent than I can be and definitely, hopefully, not vulnerable once more. And of course, greater faith in Daddy above. I will try.
Just like this evening's meet up, planned to be home bef twelve cos Regina has an early morn HKG turn but after dinner, while buddy went to meet her cousin, Regina and I eneded up at Meritus Mandarin till after twevle, talkin the night away. We sure have loads to talk bout. She's indeed like a big sis to me. Love you very much babe! Hugss.
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Was totally an emotional wreck during my stay at BNE. Drown myself by sleeping in yet even in my dreams, drama mama as it may be, he was there and everything else was replaying. During makan, was on some topic and came to a conclusion of tryin too hard. I want to think I'm tryin too hard, sadly, way too hard.
Did the most silliest thing, anyone would say. But for the sake of it, activated myself despite the super min rest, almost couldnt wake up for flt. Silliest anyone would say but I say, it was all worth it. Firstly, yes I did manage to see and talk to him for that while and even that while, really, it made me so happy. But what really made the flt was the pax who was handicapped. Too tired to elaborate. He just dawned to me; that isnt the end of life, we must continue to live and live fully.
I know, I've said this before and action speaks louder than words. But I really decided to move on, I want to. Infact, it will be tough and I know I will still do nonsense silly things, still think bout him but I will get over, I will. The wreck at BNE was really horrible plus the perfect atmosphere; dimmed room with sappy music, I was totally gone throughout, cried buckets. Never thought I would and even be in this state, esp not when I only knew him for such short period of time. But Regina said, time is not a measurement. True enough I guess. And I am sure, I really have fallen for him, deeply.
Decision made but predict as much that I will fall, be emotional and succumb to silly actions, please bear with me. But I really will learn to be strong, much stronger than yesterday, much more independent than I can be and definitely, hopefully, not vulnerable once more. And of course, greater faith in Daddy above. I will try.
It will be tough but I will miss you badly, please take very good care.
♥ love & blessings
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All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey
