Thursday, January 15, 2009
You know humans will always be humans.. Fully aware of the consequences, yet we still go ahead with it. Knew what I was into when I started reading archives.. Wont deny there were moments of sadness, uneasiness and nots. Was in fact, filled with all kinds of emotions but I'm so glad this time round, the blues were overcome by that bit of security and definitely thankfulness. Very thankful!
Despite the emotional roller coaster ride, will never delete or stop reading archives for other than memory sake, they're reality checks to me. The readings got me thinking and prolly maybe too much but it made me realised so many things as well.
Indeed God never fails, will never put us in test/situation He knows we arent capable of and more imptly, He never once left my side. Never!
One thing for sure too though, I'm still that ever insecure bitch. Hah! Something which I really pray God will help me deal with, something which I have to face and overcome it, myself.
Am very sure, buddy will second this. I'm very much in love, very very much in love with the sweetheart of mine, very hua chi as she puts it.. Shao's really my greatest blessing. He's more than anything I would, could and have ever asked for, so much so that, there will always be moments of insecurity that really makes me cringe and crumble all within. You know, the feeling of too good to be true? The fear of losing, I'm really scared of losing him. Which also explains why work is sucha chore to me now. I'm still very thankful for this job but I dont like the feeling of leaving, more so being away from darling. What if I dont make it back? And if I do, what if there is another someone... Heh! Sometimes I think it'll be none of the mentioned instead it'll be due to my insecurity! Bleah!
Speaking of not making it back, call me paranoid but it's true isnt it? The lawyer that went to BOM for supposingly just a night.. Life is so vulnerable. Since young, be it work or play, have always enjoyed welcoming someone back much more than sending, never like the feeling of departure. As contrary as it may be, I'll always still make it a point to send, for you never know what will happen.
And so I guess as cliche as the saying goes, treasure your love ones :)) (Like how I do! Heheee) And so I've learnt too, be contented, contentment is happiness :))
Despite the emotional roller coaster ride, will never delete or stop reading archives for other than memory sake, they're reality checks to me. The readings got me thinking and prolly maybe too much but it made me realised so many things as well.
Indeed God never fails, will never put us in test/situation He knows we arent capable of and more imptly, He never once left my side. Never!
One thing for sure too though, I'm still that ever insecure bitch. Hah! Something which I really pray God will help me deal with, something which I have to face and overcome it, myself.
Am very sure, buddy will second this. I'm very much in love, very very much in love with the sweetheart of mine, very hua chi as she puts it.. Shao's really my greatest blessing. He's more than anything I would, could and have ever asked for, so much so that, there will always be moments of insecurity that really makes me cringe and crumble all within. You know, the feeling of too good to be true? The fear of losing, I'm really scared of losing him. Which also explains why work is sucha chore to me now. I'm still very thankful for this job but I dont like the feeling of leaving, more so being away from darling. What if I dont make it back? And if I do, what if there is another someone... Heh! Sometimes I think it'll be none of the mentioned instead it'll be due to my insecurity! Bleah!
Speaking of not making it back, call me paranoid but it's true isnt it? The lawyer that went to BOM for supposingly just a night.. Life is so vulnerable. Since young, be it work or play, have always enjoyed welcoming someone back much more than sending, never like the feeling of departure. As contrary as it may be, I'll always still make it a point to send, for you never know what will happen.
And so I guess as cliche as the saying goes, treasure your love ones :)) (Like how I do! Heheee) And so I've learnt too, be contented, contentment is happiness :))
♥ love & blessings
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All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey
